To the Bean in The Sink

I’ve been keeping busy and almost lost focus, until I met the bean in the sink.

Being fully booked and helping others thrive in whatever goals they set is rewarding. Whether it’s helping them find themselves, find rewarding careers, thrive in their current ones, or simply guide them through interviews and other life-altering processes.

But, in the process, I forgot an important person, and that is me.

I still prioritized my health and wellbeing, but faltered with my own upskilling which is keeping me from reaching my own goals of becoming an Analyst and Data Scientist, so I started reflecting and wondering why I was doing that.

I want to be as focused on my goals as my clients, I know I have it in me to not only learn the necessary skills but also become great at what I do, but it was also clear that in my prioritization of others over myself, I did not value myself enough. If I lose focus and progress, I wouldn’t be able to help others thrive, so I really took the day to reflect and think. I didn’t want to relapse back into a depressive state, and wanted to continue my journey of self-fulfillment, betterment, and find my place in the world.

I knew I was relapsing in my journey of self-fulfillment, betterment, and building self-worth because I’ve been delaying self-care, and that’s when I decided to clean some dishes I had left in the sink since yesterday (the benefits and pitfalls of living alone).

While cleaning the dishes I noticed a single bean, hidden in a corner underneath a mug.

I’ve made beans the other day from scratch, and it seems that this bean had somehow made it to the sink, and, using the minimal moisture it found under a coffee mug, and sprouted.

it didn’t need the right conditions to grow, it found its way into a dark and damp place, found a bit of water, and grew.

I picked the bean up, stared at it and thought to myself:

Boy, little bean, aren’t you a metaphor for my life right now…

I smiled.

That resilient little bean reminded me of how far I've come, how I’ve grabbed opportunities as they came, the beautiful journey and amazing people I've met along the way, and how it brought me here.

I felt fulfillment.

So thank you little bean! I definitely should take stock of what I have, and continue sprouting.

P.S. I’m keeping the bean, will grow it, and thanks to someone's comment, decided to call it Cosmo